"It takes less mental effort to condemn than to think."
(Emma Goldman 1869-1940 Anarchist revolutionary)
It has now been 4 months, 2 weeks, 8 days, 12 hours and 45 seconds since the last time I smoked weed. Why havent I smoked? Because my girlfriend does not agree with it by reasons of her own personal understanding of it (memory loss, lack of energy, etc) and since I do believe in "compromise" I havent done it. So I havent smoked, When I get real stressed out..I havent smoked, When bullshit just falls from the sky and chooses me to be it's landing target...I havent smoked, Or when life gives me a swift kick to the nuts wearing steel toe boots and doesnt even consider handing me an ice pack afterwards...I still havent smoked. What does all this mean? It means I really want to get high and if I dont soon I will probably end up going nuts, More than I already am might I add. Its not that im some pothead who only gets high because it gives me an excuse to act like a dick and eat everything in sight, I want to get high because of the way it makes me feel......at peace. True it may be a temporary peace that will last for a few hours, Maybe less depending on how potent it is, But none the less it is peace. It helps me to remove every single ounce of utter bullshit that has sucked it's way into my life like some kind f evil parasite. I want to smoke because ultimately it is a release. Now according to the invisible contract that me and my girlfriend signed, It states that I have ONE MORE TIME to get high and then I must give up smoking weed for good and throw or give away all of my marijuana related items, which sucks because it has taken me years to collect most of them. So now you see my issue, I cant just get high one last time and lose that privelage forever, I must savor it for a day that I can truely use it, A day worthy of being called the last day of smoking. I cant waste it, So until that day comes (which the deadline of is this year) I will continue my days of none smoking. No matter how much it pains me.
awww man that sux for you but it's no different from what I have to do.I havent smoked weed since 2 month.I haven't done it because my younger brother know that I smoke so I quiet because I don't want him to pick up the habit I have.well man write to you later.